So pissed….

Dylan has been threatening to break up with me lately since we can’t see each other often. I make time for him but every time we make plans, he can’t get a ride or is grounded or blahblahblah. Oh, and he hasn’t had a phone for a while so we can’t even talk/text every day which makes it near impossible to make plans. But tonight he brought it up again so I just said fuck it, I’ll sneak out (which I REALLY hate doing, I usually get caught, I hate lying to my mom, etc.) so I got ready and walked out alone. My neighborhood is dangerous, there are multiple sexual predators and crackheads who walk around late at night, I would’ve never fucking gone outside all alone if I wasn’t so desperate to make things work. I waited outside for about half an hour, it was fucking hot and I was freaked out and scared by every car that drove by but I stayed my ass right there waiting for him only to get a call that he can’t pick me up and he would just be hanging out with his friends without me. Such bullshit man, I go out of my way to see him and then he wants to threaten to break up with me? Why should I be punished for what’s not my fault?